desear

surrounded, but still alone i feel worthless but afraid to die so i suffer, alone, in misery. i am n o t h i n g.

You meant so much to me, You were my everything. Why'd we have to change? Our conversations flowed like water: Fast and never ceasing. I miss entire days spent with you, And the times we talked all night. You calmed the monsters in my head, And helped me to smile. I miss your arms around my waist. You always would lean in and whisper 'guess who?' It was always you. Later, I'd find something in my pocket: Trinkets, candy, or a love note. You meant so much to me, You were my everything. Why'd we have to change? I left you little drawings and sketches Or candy in the locker we shared. Just so you'd know, I was thinking about

today i crossed traffic with my eyes shut tight. and tomorrow, i'll do the same. it's all just a game. so, why not come play? once i ran along the cliff. rocks fell far down, to their doom. it's just a game of chase. i dare you. come play with me. i tasted the pills, to see which ones took me far away and which ones took me very near. still i'm here. and my head just spins. why not spin with me? please come and ask me to dance. i want to sleep in the rain. and feel it wash over me. feel cold as ice, cold as death. i dare you. ask my hand to dance. it'll be my first time, but i'll trust you to make it my last.

her skin is ice cold and pale:        hopeless and bleak, like a blizzard. her eyes are listless and dark:        they are the night, without a glint of stars. her minds is prosaic:        empty and barren, it's the desert. i watch her sit alone. the steady in and out of her breath, and on her face:        i see languish.        i see suffering.        i see pain.        i see longing.        i see defeat. the only escape, her demise.

i watched as you bloodied your face with the warm juices of my once beating heart and a feeling of ecstasy surged through me as you turned and grinned with your sharp pointed teeth which were now freshly red. you crunch my bones you slurp my brains you chew my flesh and i was just eaten alive. you slither away back into the shadows but you cant hide because your eyes glow red, red as my blood which you spilled all over the floor. (i let the monster within consume me alive.)

i want to see the sun set and the sun rise in the same day will you be there                       by my side    when the    sun first         falls a w a y? hold my hand                   in the moonlight; kiss my lips                 in the starlight; just keep me                   in your arms all night long? will you still be there                        holding my hand     when the   sun first starts     to peek out? because there isn't anyone else i'd want to watch the sunrise and the sunset with.

i can't stand this feeling. i'm being torn apart, its ripping at my heart. this loneliness that won't cease until you're mine. can't you hear? listen to me beg, listen to me plead. [i don't want to spend these sleepless nights alone.] let me kiss your sleep deprived eyes. hold me in your arms so we can finally sleep -- sleep right through the heat of the day. [because in each others embrace the monsters from our dreams won't reach us.] come dance with me in the moonlight beneath the shinning stars. let me tell you i love you in more ways than there are stars in the sky. [have you ever tried to count the star? i got to 4,197 before i lost co

a poison is rushing through my veins. it's crippling and   with an ice cold grasp                        it won't go now i can't move on, i can't get better, left feeling so broken and empty [like i'm no longer whole] because and the only antidote is y o u. its tainting my every thought. you're constantly on my mind every time i shut my eyes, i see you every time i breath, i think of you every time my heart beats, its for you you're poisoning my mind [and i can't seem to think straight] because and the only antidote is y o u. can't you see your my disease and my cure?

wasted time, spent so passively and lies meant to reassure this is a gift that is just wasted on us. i'm just sitting here doing nothing i know there is suffering and despair going on around all over the world but what do i ever do? words only say so much. actions are stronger, but i'm too weak to act. humanity -- with the way we act and treat each other [our greed destroys] life is wasted on humanity, there is no hope for us. we were made to destruct, to hate, to want, to desire. but we can only learn selflessness, comparison, empathy. and its looking like we're losing that too. and i'm a part of humanity, aren'

cold and black the blank emptiness that i desire. because i know it will be the one place that the voices won't be able to reach me the one place that you won't follow me the one place where feelings are gone. a place of nothingness, which is bliss. like a darkness without monsters, it's a void in the cosmos. dismal and unknown but i find it a promising hope